Why do I even bother?

. The time has went by so quickly that I almost can’t believe it. I was told today that I shouldn’t blog about personal stuff, so I thought I would blog about that lol. I get asked a lot why do I blog so much about so many personal issues, well let me answer that. My life has not been picture perfect, I was abused as a child, went wild as a teen, and struggle with illness as an adult. I am a very open person. One poster that responded to my blog made all the doubters, and hate that I have encountered worth it and with her permission I will share with you what she shared with me. This was from a 12 year old little girl. “I was just reading your blog and wanted to know if you can help me with something” me: sure what can I do for you? “My stepdad has been doing somethings to me for a long time and I wondered if you can tell me how to get help?” That is all of the conversation I can share as it is now a pending investigation. It took me years to get to the point to which that child is at. She is now in foster care, and in therapy. Because I shared part of me honestly and openly a child has gotten out of the situation she was in. So ask was my putting myself out there worth it all. I would have to say yes it was.

There are still something’s I don’t remember and probably don’t want to subconsciously but I do hope I can someday, as its part of healing. My family hasn’t always been there, but the people I have met online and shared with have 9 times out of 10 supported me and been there when no one else was. I am just another person online, I know I can’t fix everyone or everything, heck I am still not fixed yet if that is even possible. I am however trying, and working on me.

Now to those who have so many negative things to say, I usually don’t even give people such as you a second thought. I do wish some of you would open your minds a bit. There is so much evil in the world and our communities as it is. When people can be respectful (I am not saying I want anyone to kiss my ass) then it’s for the greater good. I know some of you are so miserable on the inside that you have the need to pick apart people, or judge them. You are the ones crazy insane and in need of help. I understand that, and if that is what you need is a punching bag well I can be that as well.